Today, we are expected to justify every action and follow the rules of reason. However, this emphasis on reason has left the world vulnerable to the volatile excitement of crowds swept up by emotional, violent impulses. This reveals an inherent contradiction within human society: emotions and urges suppressed by rational order inevitably erupt in other forms, exposing fractures in civilization. My work seeks to liberate repressed desires, particularly savagery and destructive impulses, constrained by moral demands in modern society. Throughout history, human beauty has been defined by how far one distances themselves from animalistic traits. And yet it is precisely this negative beauty of animality that awakens desire. At its peak, desire draws us into ecstatic indulgence of primal instincts. I believe the moment when our savage nature emerges is the moment of “beautiful vulgarity.” It is when we are most truthful and human. Modern civilization idealizes humans when they appear least human. This project explores the clash between desire and civilization through a performance film. Rejecting the socially imposed ideal of the “proper body,” I covered myself in mud, collapsed to the ground, sweated, and sometimes threw my body violently. These acts sought to break regulated movements imposed by civilization and reveal suppressed instincts. Through this experience, I understood desire not merely as aesthetic but as physical resistance and pleasure. The process was painful, sometimes disgusting, yet euphoric. Desire is not purely instinctual. It is shaped by power and functions as resistance. What we perceive as desire is also a product of social norms and taboos, and how it manifests is shaped by social control. Michel Foucault, in The History of Sexuality, argues prohibition is not mere repression but a mechanism producing new forms of desire. Pleasure from breaking taboos also operates within scenarios they create.